spirits lifted high. i went shopping with mingkeat, roland and siew hoon and i was super high today. haha, i keep doing stupid stuff enough to make them disown me.

anyway, something scary happened just now. i was at raffles place mrt when i saw people streaming into the train. after most of the people came in, i saw 4 ladies standing right outside the train door. then i was wondering why they don want to come in. so i asked mk to see them. but mk said he din see!!!! wa..i was super freaked out. and i am still freaked out.

wanted to ask sh and rl to see too..but it was too late, the door was closing and the train was moving already. haiz...so scary right?

i got deathnote 15 on thursday night.

been waiting for a week for the episode. and all i want to do is to find a 20 min break and watch it.

but i was busy with classes and video editing on thur, and fri.

so i was hoping to watch it on sun when i come back to hall.

just when i sat down. i was called to play bridge

then i had to do my article. nobody msned me..

when i finally finished and started watching the video. people msned me.

not blaming anyone who interrupted me. but i was really very pek cek. i don like to be disturbed while watching shows.

i had an interesting 224 tutorial last week. we discussed the metaphors for interpersonal relationship. there were 3 proposition. one said that interpersonal relationship is like a room with many doors, you hold a rubberband and a mirror in that room. the doors represent the amount of uncertainty. ie. if you open more doors, the more you know about each other and the more intimate the relationship. the mirror reflects yourself because you reflect and see yourself in the relationship and will change as the relationship progresses. the rubber band reminds us that you cant pull too hard, or else it will snap.


my group proposed that interpersonal relationship is like water. It is essential, but too much will overwhelm you. the solid state of water has the most stable molecular structure, but it is also the more stable relationship that has less passion. while water is all around us, sometimes, some people take it for granted. like how we ended up treating our parents and closest friends.

the third one is actually my favorite.

it says that relationship is like a hike. you have to know where you are going. (this is the part i loved)

but knowing where you are going is not enough, you have to walk together. if one walks faster than the other, the relationship will not work out either.

eventually, you might want to get married, and stay happily in a shelter along the route. you can stay there forever, or you can walk out and move on to elsewhere. this makes so much sense because it reminds us again not to take each other for granted. One may think that marriage is the final destination and start to neglect the other half. but remember, one can always back track.

sometimes, people lost their way along the trail.

但是能一起迷路，也是一件幸福的事。

i am very angry with myself today.

1. i woke up late for class. i really cannot believe it lor. i usually wake up NATURALLY at 7-8, once the sun is up. But after i woke up naturally, i slept till 10. and i missed my tut.

2. i could still make it in time for the next class. but i went to the wrong classroom. and i was late.

3. i fell asleep in 224.

i don know why i am taking it so emotionally. but when i tell the others, they don seem to feel the anger that i have for missing classes. skipping classes is like a norm. haiz....

i will not skip classes. and i will not oversleep.

agh..


i really wasted one whole day today. in my agenda, i was supposed to catch up on all my readings. but i did not. and at the end of the day, i start to wonder where time had gone. i couldnt answer my own question.

firstly, i woke up at 10 plus..washed up and read a few pages. soon it was lunch time, so i took a one hour lunch. then i was hanging around, waiting for christine to go and look for the profs together. but in the end we din. so we decided to play mahjong. it was really fun. coz we play tiak ears instead. hahaha. i love tiaking ears. hmm...maybe there is some violent and sadist element in me. *evil grinz*

after mahjong it was time to go for cheerleading. i really wanted to do my assignment then. but with all the profs and people around me, i just felt awkward taking my books out. it's like wet blanket. taking a book in the middle of high spirited cheerleaders.

yap. it's 2 am and i haven finished my assignment yet.

yay. i can blog.

so tired. stayed in the jcrc room for one whole day just to load the videos. but not bad la...got notes to accompany me.

random thoughts again. i think i am thinking too much lately. and too lonely also. no one really attends classes with me. except for 202 and 224. thanks to the 2 core thing. now i must be more friendly.

speaking of that i need to write 1 journal a week. haiz..

random thought of the day.

am i getting karma? i am going for tuition soon. but it has never been so stressful ever since i started teaching. reason being- the dad calls me all the time. firstly, he is unsure if i could teach science. then he complains about me not arriving earlier than expected. eg. tuition starts at 7, he wanted me to reach at 630. and he scolded me for trying to reach on time. wth right? then thirdly, he wanted me to teach math. and he wanted 3 hours straight. wa...3 hours of tuition. i tried that before. the kid died. so did i. so i told him that. he din believe. he must have thought that i am plain lazy. wth again. actually, i should have just not tell him the truth. it's good for me. the kid will die, i will die but i get extra income. why not right? some people just don listen to wise advice.

this is the first time i have problems with parents. and guess wad. he is a taxi driver. i owed a taxi driver before. and i guess this is the karma.

i am four months old. though young, i really enjoy freezing the moments.


kbox with csbs..







kbox with yihan, serene and shane but not sure why they never took group photo. haha.



me and christelle at yihan's bday lunch

me and bithday boy!



second party on 14th jan. qt was the bday boy. and the rest is latheya. haha. that day was fun. bday boy was kidnapped. the whole show was put up very nicely.



chocolate fondue at the third party off the day...



artistic shot. reminds me of the 9 face shot from canon, lumix can do it too!!! i am proud of my camera. anyway, the models were chio....they were all from my sec school. :)

hope to take more photos...i am still a little sad over my camera...hope it gets well soon

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你
你了解我所有得意的东西
拆穿我留些意怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形像保密
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你

this song used to remind me of somebody and i used to put this song on repeat mode whenever i miss the person. i stopped doing so for a period of time. and when i heard it again yesterday, i realised that it was a song about friendship. i think i have answered half of my question.

yeah. i am sick!!!! haha. if i get a fever this time round, i foresee myself rather healthy for the coming semester. and this is absolutely required. anyway, don come near me...patient with running nose is full of germs.

ok la too tired le ..byebye

wee!!!

i finally watched deathnote two!! it's really very good. i declare myself a deathnote fan. haha.

haiz. this post is going to end here. why ? coz i always face a dilemma when it comes to blogging about movies. it is like a movie spoiler for those who haven watched...

it's cruel to put a girl opposite shelves of chocolaes, chips and candies for straight 10 hours. she will start to think too much about food, wishing they were hers, only to find out that she cant eat during work.

it is also cruel that her workplace has so little passerbys. it's no one's fault. it's 3rd jan, not a public holiday nor a school holiday. it's only natural to start fantasizing about all the good food she had tasted. yum....

i really cannot take it anymore...i want to talk to you but i cant find a chance. and i don know when i will find a chance. and i know that i am coming back here so that i may find an opportunity. i never found myself so silly as this.

closure closure closure...

happy new year everyone!!!

i celebrated it with my jars at the esplanade. we saw the fireworks!!!! it's so beautiful man. jane sent me the video le. but i don know how to show you guys. something keeps bugging me then. i don understand why we go through so much trouble to see the fireworks. but when i saw it, i understood. after that, i start to question the nation. why put fireworks...and give yourself so much trouble with the security, crowd dispersal and stuff like that.

maybe i still have alot on my mind...so i cant feel the hype. i wish i knew the answer, but then maybe i don need it. i like the word closure. it's so appropriate...