hmmm..i managed to live without a laptop for one week.

anyway, i am super sick. puke embarrassingly in public alot of times. but i realised that people are really nice. yesterday, one guy saw me puking and ask if i need help. so i asked him to help me buy hot milo. and he really walked to can 2 then walk back. then i puke again at can a bus stop. another lady offered me her newater. really very touched. then i puked again today. then victor and pohling also helped me get water and tissue...i want to be a nice person too.. :)

i hope i get well soon....

today i heard smth enlightening in church.

it was about adam and eve. God gave them many many trees for food, these are called the trees of life. But he also told them that there was this tree that they cannot eat from. this tree was called the tree of knowledge of good and evil. in the end, not withstanding the serpent's temptation, eve chose to disobey god and ate from the tree of knowledge. (alright..these are all in the bible)

and the speaker drew the analogy to present time.

the society is still like that. knowledge is chosen over life, which explains te knowledge based economy and stuff like that. not that knowledge is evil...but the priority is wrong.

well...the speaker today really got me thinking about alot of things...

haha..i wanted to do this "of the year series" . and i have the movie thing on the right. people, vote leh!!

so i have my idol of the year. haha. look at the video. he is too zai for words. he can sing, he knows how to play violin, piano and writes his songs...wa.

hey babe. it's 2 am in the morning and i don dare to fall asleep. damn it. i really scared of sleeping alone leh.

anyway, think i sold my life to hall le. i feel abit sad. suddenly i lost my freedom to making numbers and playing things i don like to play. for example-- carrom. it's so sian lor. and my finger hurts. i really think that playing 3 rounds is crazy. just 1 set is enough, if you are good, you are good. k?

think carrom wasnt as enjoyable as othello. maybe coz i am inexperience, i don like to do things that i am not good at. and i think it is not fun enough for me to like.

haiz.....

i just read xiuyun's blog. suddenly i am reminded of the work i had last week. it wasnt so bad la..but i do feel pressurized, coz siting is really very good. hmmm...i think there are many kinds of customers. the most memorable one was this gal who brought 2 of her friends to buy from me!!! she was really helping me to make sale. and the three of them were really friendly and i feel the excitement as i scratch the card for them. coz they really don want to win the water bottle. haha. but in the end they still did. i felt quite sorry for them too. then i also saw yixiang who was really nice!! he bought from me too. but i was really sotong, gave him wrong prize. haha. aiya. hmm. i think i had the best time with a japanese customer. i think it really helped me alot to know japanese. i was so glad to be able to use this ability. haha. you don get much chance to speak japanese in singaporre.....so i really felp happy. haha.

i think i am going to work again neext week. i don look forward to it though. but money is important!!!!

i represented hall in othello!!! so exciting. haha....actually i went for ulterior motive la...coz i loved the shirt. well, i din do too badly. i played 3 games in total, won the first, lost the second and walk over for the third. not bad right? i am proud of my first game.

i am going crazy doing the publication stuff....can somebody help me?...it's 2 am and i wanna sleep

starting to slack from my diligent blogging habit. haha.

let's continue from sunday. in the end, i din sleep until 8 am. woke up at 1030, went to church...came back and slept till the sun set. it seems like awake only when the sun is down. luckily that was the only night i had insomnia. not being able to sleep is a torture.

then i worked full day on mon....super sian...visit me at jp watsons if you have time.

hmmmm...anyway, i din get the nus exchange. the email went like this..."Dear students, Thank you for your application for the Singapore Universities Student Exchange Programme (SUSEP) with NUS. Due to overwhelming response, we regret to inform you that you are not being selected to participate in the program. You are welcome to apply again in the subsequent semester. "

hmm..i am really quite sad after reading it. coz this is the only possible semester that i can go for exchange and i really want to get out of ntu. i have one request...don talk to me about the nus exchange. i can pretend that i never applied and move on happily. try telling me jokes might help.

it's really nice to have friends overseas because when i get insomnia, there are pple to chat with.

anyway, welcome to the new template!!!

i don love it...somewhat miss the old one..but...jiawei said that it's nice. so be it!

anyway, i have a serious problem over here,

there's excess energy in me.

i really cant get to sleep at night. and i pray real hard as i am trying to fall asleep. but tonight, i just cant sleep. and i get really hungry. so i officially have compulsive hunger disorder and compulsive insomnia disorder.

hungry and not sleepy = the worst combination after exams. it would be fine to have insomnia during exam preparation period.

acttually, i am beginning to yawn as i type this.

you know wad? thinking helps me get to sleep. readers, please post some intelligent/controversial/inspiring/philpsophical topics on my tagboard please. no excuse now. the tagboard is on your right.

ok...i really wanna change my template...but i don know how...

right now i have a rough idea. but i don know how to execute it. coz i have no idea how to do html. should have paid attention in class when i was in sec 2..and not busy surfing net and playing neopets last time. haiz....

anyway..i am seriously too bored...ask me out leh...

back for xin's sake.

i am a lonely soul again. i've finished desperate housewives and everyone is out now. i have nothing to accompany me again.

let's talk about loneliness.

i think one important lesson that i have learnt so far is to value loneliness. maybe the term loneliness is not appropriate, but it is important to have time for yourself.

reason number one is that you get to do whatever you like without having to wait for others. you do what you want to do at your own pace. Reason number two is you have the time to think rather than be dragged around by the people and the things around you. reason number 3 is you need time for self reflection. reason number 4 is to appreciate the thing around you.

good...time is passing as i typed this.

watched 3 movies in a row. haha! really enjoyed going out.

1. casino royale.

i think i would give it 3 stars. the action is really good. but somewhat, i am more impressed by the black guy more than 007 at the start of the movie. hmm, i think wad i was disappointed with was the lack of coherence with the theme. it was called casino royale...but the casino only came halfway through the film. so basically, i thot that the front was too draggy....and so is the ending....i keep waiting for it to end. well...a good plot for an action movie isnt really that important ya?

2. happy feet.

wooh...i love this movie. it's so cute. i loved the ego penguins that went with bobo. i am impressed with the dance and the songs. the onli thing i had was the ending...it felt like trying too hard to get a happy ending...

watched this with yanxuan...and we started talking in 229 terms...i think i am watching movie in a different way now.

3. saw 3.

it was r21. but i can take the gore pretty well. only closed my eyes for a few short while. well, i still admire the film maker for this movie...never failed to amaze me that they can produce a film with so little budget. (ya, compare the action with casino royale and technical aspect of happy feet), relatively little money. anyway, i still hae some problems with the plot...tell me if you have watched it. then i can ask you. hehe.