yeah..the diligent me is back. i am really hooked to the tv set, so i am coming online less.

anyway, made a little trip out to amk central. THE MCDONALDS HAS CHANGED!!!

sorry for the over reaction. but i cant believe there was renovation without me knowing it. ok, i just have to admit that i haven been home much.

my little trip out felt like an embarrassing trip out. first, i wore my rj t-shirt and i walked passed this bunch of rj kids at the road. hmm, it just felt weird coz we were like staring at each other. hahaha.

then i went to buy soya milk and the papers...it was 4. these sounds like something you should buy at 9 am. not 4. it felt like i just woke up, but the truth was i woke up at 10 in the morning.

anyway, there was a blackout in my house last night at 3 a.m. it's quite bad because the aircon was off and all of us cannot pretend that nothing had happened and continue sleeping. so we called the electrician and things were finally settled by 4.

hello everyone....i really have nothing to do this week, so i intend to blog diligently everyday.

1. yesterday, i went to the creative sale. i bought a speaker, a headphone and a zen neon (sadly, it's not going to be mine, it's my brother's)...but well, at least i got a christmas gift settled. yeah.

and i fell in love with this...



2. today, i watched lots of desperate housewives episodes....wow...i love this show man...but i still prefer watching it episode by episode. coz there is always a moral at the end of the story. and i prefer to have time to digest it.

3. and i read kay chin's mail today...titled the last time. somewhat i felt sad. it was the last mail, and he designed it in the form of a newspaper article. quite nice...can tell there's effort into this last mail. and he talked about him leaving in the third person's voice. somewhat, it made me felt a little sad...

well pple come and pple go...it's really no big deal.

ok...so that's the end of it..

one can only be happy if one has done well, and not when one has completed

so i am not happy...

actually i don feel like going out to shop or play...but i would gladly accompany those who wants...

coz it feels like taking drugs ... being high and away from reality...aand i don like that feeling. i want to face the reality.

i really want to sing kbox. wanna vent it all out..

i really want to watch a sad movie. wanna dry the tears inside me.

today, i submitted the nus application form to the office. ya...i intend to go for the local exchange, i really do hope that i can go there, coz can s/u my subjects, and i can spend more time on jcrc stuff.

anyway, i realised i really do work independently and just make decisions on my own, not telling other people or consulting them. and i think it's not good....it doesnt feel good to see shock faces about your major decisions, coz i got a shock too...i think it's worse that pple know it from a third person and not me.

i was watching the guess, guess, guess just now. apparently, there is this new guy called cai min you. and he plays violin really well! hahha. new idol! i am trying to dl his songs, but baidu is still down...

anyway, there was this guest called jerry c who could play guitar super well....and he played canon in D with my new idol...i was totally overwhelmed by the violin..

violin is the in thing man!
last night, i brought a smile to sleep, coz you said you could multitask, and i got to talk to you. whee!

new discoveries today.

1. there is such thing as play count in itunes. and please guess which is the most played song on my computer?

*drumroll...

shan hu hai by jay chou. the play count was 113. i think i really overplayed this song when it came out...coz the second on the list only has a play count of 73.

hmmm....the song title for the second on the list is sarangheiyo by lin jun jie. whee! i have pleasant memories with the song.

anyway, the remainder of the songs only has a play count of 30 odd....which makes these two songs really special.

2. there is a nice guy from NBS!

haha. this really nice guy was studying in CS and he played his songs on his laptop. i heard the entire clay aiken's new album from there. i was really very excited..i actually listened through all the songs, ensured that there is "everything i have", then i decided to ask him for the songs...

it was really embarrassing. coz none of us has seen him before...(coz he not from cs), so i don dare to go up to him and ask if i can kop song.

haha...luckily there was shisi...she accompanied me as i went up to the guy to ask for the songs...

anyway, the guy was really nice la....transfer the files to me...

and ta da! i have the new clay aiken's album - a thousand different ways.

:)

3. rebecca is on the front page. girl, you look pretty! haha
i've kept a copy with me. haha! :)

just for that 10 hours....

hang on.

2 hours for 201, 2 hours for 203, 2 hours for 226, 2 hours for 229, 2 hours for 816.

have been camping at the cs benches these 2 days. it's a really nice place to study. nice pple, nice music, nice ambience of pple talking abt 201. i know that when i go back to the benches again, i will see memories of me studying 201. hmm...deep inside, i think you guys can tell that i really hope that 201 will be a memory. i don wish to take it again. so pray that i will pass with flying colours k?

anyway, certain conclusions these days.

1. i cannot eat kfc delivery. i ate it last friday and i had stomachache. i ate it again 2 days ago, and the same thing happened. so i will eat macs and pizza from now on.

2. i cannot eat biscuits. it's so dry and gets stuck all over my braces.

3. the hot coffee from the vending machine really keeps you awake.

4. food from can b taste good afterall. esp when you only eat from can 13, 14 and 16 for the past week.

5. i can never finish a lollipop.

6. food is my best companion during the big E period.

nice song i heard. it's called "what can i do" by the corrs.

I haven't slept at all in days

It's been so long since we've talked

And i have been here many times
I haven't slept at all in days
I just don't know what i'm doing wrong
It's been so long since we've talked

And I have been here many times

I just don't know what I'm doing wrong
What can i do to make you love me

What can i do to make you care
What can I do to make you love me
What can i say to make you feel this
What can I do to make you care
What can i do to get you there
What can I say to make you feel this

What can I do to get you there


There's only so much i can take
There's only so much I can take
And i just got to let go
And I just got to let go
And who knows i might feel better, yeah
And who knows I might feel better, yeah
If i don't try and i don't hope
If I don't try and I don't hope


What can I do to make you love me
What can i do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can i do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can i say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

hmm....my favorite line was "If i don try and i don hope"...makes me feel inspired. it's like if i don study hard, then i cant hope too high when the results come back. Gambatte.

I just hope that everyday will start well.

this is the week before exams. and there are alot of thoughts through my mind. so glad that i went to church today and met christelle. i think it's great to have a friend who is totally out of the usual gang of people that you normally hang out with. there are just some things you cant say infront of them....but yet you need to talk about it.

as i look through my life, i realised that it's getting harder, esp with regards to relationships with other people. so i prefer to isolate myself. wad C said was true, since a long long time ago. it's nicer to lead your life without having to 迁就 people all the time. i think i was more of a herd kind of person, but now i see her point. maybe i turned more cold-blooded, alot of things doesnt seem to matter a anymore. or maybe, i've just 看开了。

this is a really lousy post with a mix of languages. i don like it....it's supposed to be something abt my feelings, but it is not organised. explains my state of mind...maybe?

anyway, this is how my desktop looks like now.





point of the second picture is to show how early i end my exams.

A: I wanna tell you two words
A: I love you
B: isnt that three words ?
A: because you and I are one...

wa....so sweet right? totally melted when mel told us that. the sweetest pick-up line i have heard so far.

7th November. jia wei's bday....and i wanna wish someone else happy birthday too.

i don know who the name of this "someone else", so to me, he is known as the fish and co guy.

3 years ago, I celebrated Jiawei's and Yokepean's birthday at fish and co glass house. There were alot of people celebrating their birthdays too.

3 years ago, fish and co glasshouse had this tradition - major birthday party held for everyone in the house. all the birthday boys and girls will come to the front and play a game, which they will never win, followed by a forfeit. this forfeit....was really memorable for me..

hmm....it's difficult to spell it out on my blog.

in a nutshell, i got to know this guy. but i don know his name, never got his number, and never wished him happy birthday even though it was.

throughout this three years, i keep thinking if i will meet him again. i have a vague impression that he is older than me by 2 years. thus, i really hope to meet him when i come to uni. then i thought, if he is in poly, he will enter uni this year. But then again, even if i meet him, i wont be able to recognise him. and till now, i cant even remember if he is reallt 2 years older.

after three years, i still want to wish him happy birthday.

okay..this is a little publicity for this guy.

He wore a white collar t-shirt on his birthday 3 years ago. his birthday lies somewhere in early november or late october. he should be 22 this year and (hopefully), remember a girl on his birthday celebration at fish and co. 3 years ago.

met him for 5 seconds, remembered him for 3 years. sometimes, little things go a long way.

7th November. jia wei's bday....and i wanna wish someone else happy birthday too.

i don know who the name of this "someone else", so to me, he is known as the fish and co guy.

3 years ago, I celebrated Jiawei's and Yokepean's birthday at fish and co glass house. There were alot of people celebrating their birthdays too.

3 years ago, fish and co glasshouse had this tradition - major birthday party held for everyone in the house. all the birthday boys and girls will come to the front and play a game, which they will never win, followed by a forfeit. this forfeit....was really memorable for me..

hmm....it's difficult to spell it out on my blog.

in a nutshell, i got to know this guy. but i don know his name, never got his number, and never wished him happy birthday even though it was.

throughout this three years, i keep thinking if i will meet him again. i have a vague impression that he is older than me by 2 years. thus, i really hope to meet him when i come to uni. then i thought, if he is in poly, he will enter uni this year. But then again, even if i meet him, i wont be able to recognise him. and till now, i cant even remember if he is reallt 2 years older.

after three years, i still want to wish him happy birthday.

okay..this is a little publicity for this guy.

He wore a white collar t-shirt on his birthday 3 years ago. his birthday lies somewhere in early november or late october. he should be 22 this year and (hopefully), remember a girl on his birthday celebration at fish and co. 3 years ago.

very long never write my tooth journal liao...so here it goes

teeth journal no. ? (i forgot)

today we visited the dentist. we were quite happy that our owner has taken well of us. so today was purely tightening and slendering of the front teeth. haha. now big bucktooth is significantly smaller...and we hope that we will look nice at the end of the treatment. Our owner is really happy that we don have to go through polishing, coz it's quite painful..

anyway, slendering the teeth is quite scary ( it means to make the teeth smaller). coz we only hear the sawing sound...when we entered the clinic, it was for the first time that the dentist on the radio damn loud..it was class 95. haha. not bad...but in the end, we only heard the saw and not nice songs.

hmm..so that's the end of the visit, and it only took less than half an hour! wheee!! (mainly coz no need to polish teeth)..so after the visit, talk to aunite for a while...she like a mom. she told me to study hard. and she gave me a quote from her son. "i made this choice, so i must make sure i do well."...wa...i was like..ya...that was what i told myself when i chose comm studies. it's a good reminder..and to think about it..i just need to xin ku for less than a month...so jia you...

i am really sad...right now and forever more.

I had a nightmare last night. REALLY scary...

i dreamt that My head was chopped off and was sewn back. I can Shuwan in the dream too. there was this bloody red line around her neck and there were thread marks. but at the Same time, i can feel that my neck was detached from my head, and that i cannot move my head because it might just Slight off. However, i was able to do alot of things in my dream...like...going for dental...ANd visiting the people there and went alot of other places. and interestingly, people were not afraid of me...

haha...and then i woke up. and i was quite scared of moving my head. had to felt around my neck to make sure that it is intact b4 moving..

told sitiing abt it...and she thinks that it's quite morbid..haizE...

ok..i havent been able to publish my blog. and i seriously don know why...so this is testing