today, someone wished me a nice trip back home, but i turned out damn badly.

this is what i planned today

1. leave hall at 12.
2. dental appointment at 2.
3. reach home at 3 and start doing ga3

and this was wad happened

1. leave my room at 12.
2. waited for other people.
3. reached jp at 1240.
4. waited for people to eat until 130
5. waited very long for the cab.
6. board the cab at 2.
7. change my appointment to 4.
8. change my appointment to next week because the previous operation ended at 5. so i went there for nothing.
9. got so pissed off about the whole thing, that i went home and scolded my brother.
10. he cried.
11. felt so bad..and decided to sleep
12. woke up at 9.
13. decided that i felt so bad that i cannot do anything..

and it all started from me deciding to wait for other people.

i will be alone all the time from now on.

i spent the entire day in the tv lounge doing 226. and guess wad!!! i only did 5 pages. all are not completed....always left abit not done here and there...

it was a nice time with xy there....slogging away for the ga3 together.

and it wasnt such a nice time to see people coming in and greeting me, " hi, PQ!!"

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damn it roland...roland bye....(if it's time for vulgarities...this is the time).

anyway, roland put this on his nick, "angel: shuwan is a nice girl. devil: like real, she is PQ!!!"

and today, i finally realised how many friends roland has. worst still, all male. let me count the number of people calling me PQ today....i have ben, weiming, wilfred, jarren and kelvin. that's 5...who happened to meet me while i was in tv lounge: indicating that the numbers may be greater. (Ng, 2006)

to all out there.....don ask me wad is pq...and don call me pq....i am just an innocent young lady.

haha, i spent 2 hours in front of the tv just now. not bad...decided to reward myself after this terrible week. it was a nice show. a korean movie titled "my tutor friend". hmm...korean shows are nice...now i am dying to watch princess hours...anybody has them?

back to this terrible week. it really felt like shit..over a lot of things...and cried twice over some idiot. anyway, luckily i saw this verse..and i kept me sane and going. if i din seem angry and looks happy...this is the source.

perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lack wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.

James 1: 4-5.

this is a damn nice song....forgot to intro on my blog. it's by guang liang and jiang mei qi. titled: dui ni you gan jue. i like para 3 alot, or stanza 3...it's simply sweet to just quietly standby for someone.

我曾深刻体会
对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你
给我安慰

看你失落的脸
又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈

眼角的泪
它给过谁
伤透了心
也无所谓
我会愿意
静静地
陪在你身边

如果说爱
已不可为
那我宁愿
藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备
跨越爱的界线

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退
被爱包围
谁犯规
都狼狈
谁能解围
让一切完美

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我
拥抱瞬间
不后悔
这暧昧
星光唯美
把爱放心里面

you cant be away all the time.

当我还是小孩的时候
最快乐是你牵我的手
一起和这音乐自由跳动
那么简单
不需要理由
一年一年张大了以后
我们不再容易被感动
是否世界变了
你也变了
记忆中的旋律却依旧
温习回味你曾拥抱我
想念只在这一个角落
生命中最美最美的那一刻
笑容藏在你我的心中

nice song.

last night i had a really nice dream, refuse to wake up from it until the dream ended..and it was 11 a.m. haaha. i tink the setting was in cs. my friend came over and gave me lantern, coz it's mid autumn or smth. then smth happened. so i went back hall. after i came back to cs, my friend was still there. at the bus stop...and it was like 2am....other cs pple were still there. then i think i talked to my friend for very long after that.

i think it's a very good summary of wad happened betweeen my friend and i...there's alot of parallels...sometimes the subconscious mind makees very good literature..without spelling things out.

yesterday, i saw smth. and i was quite sad...it's hard to act tough. xin says i should claarify why don you talk to me..but it's difficult....can you just talk to me instead?

look at this



it's just damn nice.

FOOD is the best therapy in such a lousy day like this.

If You Were Born in 2893...

Your Name Would Be: Galt Terr And You Would Be: Telepathic

If You Were Born in 2893

Your 1920's Name is:

Dixie Alfreda

What's Your 1920's Name?

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few. But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky. Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

alright..i watched none of those
today, i am still waiting for you to talk to me. and you don. i am sad, and it's difficult to hide. can you please talk to me! .

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as down to earth and reliable. Overall, your true self is reserved and logical. With friends, you seem logical, detached, and a bit manipulative. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

You Should Travel to Cambodia

While you might not go all Angelina Jolie and adopt a baby...You can still appreciate Cambodia's rich history and deserted beaches.

What Asian Country Should You Visit?

this is interesting, i thot i might get taiwan or japan or KOREA! haha...but it seems like none...

You Belong in Spring

Optimistic, lively, and almost always happy with the world...You can truly appreciate the blooming nature of spring.Whether you're planting flowers or dyeing Easter eggs, spring is definitely your season!

href="What Season Are You?

aiya...so sad...my fav season is summer....

Your Hidden Talent

You are a great communicator. You have a real way with words.You're never at a loss to explain what you mean or how you feel.People find it easy to empathize with you, no matter what your situation.When you're up, you make everyone happy. But when you're down, everyone suffers.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

Your Animal Personality Your Power Animal: Deer
Animal You Were in a Past Life: Panda
You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker.While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.

The Animal Personality Test

this is cool. it says that i am not rational. previous tests says that i am.

ok...enough for the day.
this evening, i stared your name and your online status, wondering why you are not talking to me. i am tired of initiating chats and getting ignored later. in sadness, i left hall for tuition. just now i did a test, it says that my true love sign was your sign. it hurts.

so many things to do, so little time

there's rj open house tmr and i really feel like dropping by to take a look. i am glad that there will be tuition tmr too at 7, so maybe i will reach bishan earlier, drop by rj, go study at the library, then go for tuition.

but i reallly hope i have the time. any rj kids wanna join me? call me k?

i am restless...yet tired ..

ramblings by incidents

1. i just finished my newsletter, and i am really happy. one more thing down. yeah. i hope that everyone will enjoy reading it...coz this issue has lot more photos than the last. haha.

2. my teacher doubted my existence in class. hedwig asked me if i was really in 203 and double checked it with xy. she kept asking me if i understood her instructions...utterly embarrassed in class

3. i haven mentioned that i locked myself in the jcrc room before. it was quite scary. i think i was too blur then....still too blur to do anything right.

4. i feel that you have been ignoring me for quite some time. somewhat, i feel that you hae drifted from me and i am really hurt...and i don even know why. i think it's been a week, and if i am ever sad...it's really because of that.

sorry...

sorry...

let's talk about hates today

1. i hate to have no time to catch up with my friends.
2. i hate it the feeling of dying to talk to my friends but yet have to do work at the same time.
3. i hate it when people don come online.
4. i hate to wait
5. i hate exams
6. i hate to lie
7. i hate to have no time
8. i hate it when my friends are overseas
9. i hate the fact that i can do much lesser stuff than i used to
10. i hate feeling lethargic all the time
11. i hate the fact that i am blur and stupid
12. i hate the fact that i need other people to save me after i do stupid things
13. i don like people to laugh at me

i have a lot of wishes...

1. to eat kfc with the luxury of time
2. to sing kbox
3. to eat a proper meal in the canteen and stop skipping meals.

i have things to thank god for.

1. thank god for a meticulous brother. i koed on his bed the other time, and he remembered to put my phone by my side so i can wake up to the alarm and not be late for tuition.

2. having seen my subcommers at work. and they are doing great.

3. for the jcrc investiture to be over

i want to watch the world go past with you..and not spin aalong with it...

i am getting dizzy...please don bitch to me anymore...i operate better without bitching from other people about other people.

i want to sleep, but i cant get to sleep. and i am too tired to do anything else.

addicted to korean show. it's called a love to kill. and yet i fell asleep watching it. maybe i am escaping...escaping from what things i don like about the show.
the song in the show goes like this.."i love you, will you love me?" reminds me of wad someone had said b4. and wad if i will? but things are never going to be way i want it to be.