it really feels nice to know that pple care and are so understanding. well, i do think that i am okay..or at least i know how to cheer myself up.

i coloured my hair and painted my nails for example. now, my hair is red under the light and my nails are blue. i seriously don look like some kind of monster now, so don worry. funky? maybe. hahaha. i hope i don sound too ego.

actually, to be able to blog here doesnt mean that i am very free. it just means that i am in cati lab and the pple here are hogging the darn printer so i cant print my stuff...so i might as well use the time for smth more constructive. (i don know how blogging is constructive, but it's certainly my channel of expressing my emotions, i guess it's impt sia? if not i might just blow up at the guy who cant stop printing his god-knows-wad)

haiz...
damn tired...

i am really damn tired. and my ear hurts....from those 3 who flicked my ear. good job.

i am waiting for my nasi lemak now. hungry.

i think i am too busy and i feel bad. i feel bad that i cannot take good care of myself. skipping meals is not a good thing man. i also feel bad that i cannot have enough time for my friends..i feel bad that i cannot do the things that i want to do. actually today i really wanted to go for the food club thing, since it's shi ming's event also. but i had to pack goodie bag until quite late and i was just too tired to go.
and i really want to go shopping and buy my cheongsam..and even find time to do up my hair for the event. but i don think i would have the luxury.
and i really want to study also. i have been doing my work so last minute that it feels wrong. i am in uni to study, not to do cca. cca should be part time...

maybe i'll be like that until the end of this week....but maybe it will last for one more year.

back on blogger again. haven been blogging for a long time.

y=1/x equals to an equation of no turning point, i wonder how many pple can get it.
the election of the 6th jcrc was just over and i am feeling weird. i think i am not used to it. and maybe because there are too many things that i have to do for the next 2 weeks.
i need to sleep and i need to do my work.
sometimes i feel like pulling my hair.

today i slept for the most number of hours in a day. woke up at 10 although i was supposed to wake up at 6. just slept right through even though i had 8 missed calls and an alarm. after tuition, i went back home and took a nap, the next thing i knew was it's 4pm. and i decided to sleep a while more. and the next thing i know was 8pm.

so much for wanting to study for 201. haiz..now i am marking my kids' math paper.

i lose stuff every wednesday man...and i am quite pissed off.i was writing with it, did something on the computer and *poof* the pen was gone. and i searched the entire lab. i really don know where it went. and seriously speaking, i only have 1 pen. so i am really super pissed off.

anyway, i still haven got my replacement card. so i feel really broke. i don want to spend money buying another pen!!!

damn pissed off. but i guess i have to...if not, then how?

maybe i might just *poof and disappear next wednesday. haha. this reminds me of a dream i had about myself disappearing. haha. let's see what goes missing on next wednesday.

everything just have to go wrong when i am so tired.

i found that i lost my debit card this morning. dammn screwed. and i don know how i lost it. i din lose my wallet...no one stole from my wallet...only my debit card was lost..so i only realised it half an hour before my next class starts..almost couldnt go for it. but it's okay now, i stopped the card and the new one should be coming soon.

anyway, class was all the way from 830 to 730. so much for taking management with humour. i kinda like it...he is funny but i am so tired that i just fell asleep halfway through the lecture.

then i had to help out with 2 booths from like 7 plus to 10 plus. when i reached i realised that i am supposed to decor the dnd booth. like wth. i really felt like shit. so contingency plan came up and i anyhow decorated the booth. but luckily it still looks okay. so yeap...anyway...loved all those who had brought food and dessert for me. you guys are heaven-sent.

i think i am stressed and i am tired..i believe things will get better. and to those who cared..thanks. :)

i've disappeared from blogger for a week, ever since school started.

and the reason for disappearance is not even because of school work.

i wish i can talk to somebody as to what i am feeling now, but i cant seem to put my state of confusion into words. then it seems like there's no point talking at all. i feel like following my heart, but it doesnt seem to match up with expectations.

maybe i am just tired. but i wont burn out, i wont shut down. i've been through worse. but maybe that's the reason why i feel like slacking instead.

i guess all i need some faith from other people and a little confidence from myself.

i hope you reply my email..the only source of joy for me now.

school's gonna start tmr...having mixed feelings now...i cant wait for school to start because it means that i can start working hard and pull up my gpa. i cant wait for school to start because i know i am going to enjoy some of the modules. i cant wait for school to start because i can see all my other friends again.

but i don want school to start because there are so many things that i din accomplish during the hols. i wanted to finish all my books, i wanted to meet up with all my friends, i want to be the one organising outings.

i've met up with quite a few friends over the weekend- my jc og and cross country pple- and i keep thinking back of the old times...

these are the things i used to enjoy. i'll keep these favorite things in mind while i foresee the difficult times ahead when school starts.

1. i enjoy going to zaecove on the 3rd floor every morning. i like to look over the track every morning and share my day with latheya. i enjoy talking non-stop with them until we have to run down the stairs just to be in time for assembly.

2. i enjoy wearing my school uniform but i don fancy spot-checks.

3. i enjoy running on the school track in the evenings. esp those times with my gossip partners. i like to gossip and sing songs while running. i also enjoy the times when we run with each other and feeling each other's presence even though we are not talking.

i guess i am going to stop here for now...the list is never ending...

i enjoy crying too..esp whenever i miss you

i've been bullied during camp.

incident no. 1-- i've was xi shua shuaed on the canvass filled with soap. (basically 3 guys pulled my 4 limbs and dragged me along the canvass). that's not all, right after they let go of me, and while i was trying to get up, someone poured ANOTHER PAIL OF WATER ON ME. (by then it was the 3rd pail of water)

incident no. 2 -- i was whacked all over by green and red paint. wad's worse was i never bring towel or clothes...so i remained red and green as i went for tuition. the funny thing was when i went over to emily and asked for water to clean up, i asked if she saw wad they had done to me. she said yes. and so i asked why din she save me. she said that she was busy laughing.

haha....actually when i think back on these stuff, i find them quite funny...how could i not have known that they were going to xi shua shua and whack me? haha. should have ran away...

i guess the onli sad thing that happened was that my video was deleted coz of foc..a little angry, a little more sad. price of growing up-don make a big fuss.