haha, jiawei tagged me and i am supposed to list down 5 simple pleasures in life that i appreciate most in life.

1. to have someone to think about. it will put on smiles on your face everyday, and sth to look forward to

2. when people remember your birthday and book you in advance for an outing

3. to feel god's love

4. when mere acquaintances smile at you

5. when your mum calls you asking when you will be going home

yap..just typed it out as they come to mu mind, not neccessarily in the order of importance...though i would think that god's love is the greatest thing on earth. =)

"owe no one anything except to love one another, for those who loves another fufils the law." romans 13:8

phew...tuition din turn out as bad as it seeemed. the kids were quite fun today. it really depends on what you do with them. the first time i went there, i was concentrating on the assessment books. wahaha. but this time round, i was playing hang man and spelling competition with them. also can improve vocab mah, right?

but as usual, they were super noisy. had to shush them so many times. i super scared i kenna complained for letting them play games. next time must teach them how to play catch 22. suddenly remembered how to play. yeah.

my student made this comment which struck me today. she said," teacher, you should be a teacher next time."sort of reminded me of the teaching scholarship that i rejected, i am not brooding over it, coz i know i want to be a broadcast journalist more than to be a teacher. but it seriously never struck me that i can handle a class and i was so stressed this morning knowing that i have to meet them again today. hmm...i am starting to miss them....coz i know i wont go for class for the next month since i will be having exams...will be asking my brother to take over them for me.

sometimes i get worried about my life when staying in hostel. there was some bombings in the military lands right opposite my room. the first blast set the curtains moving on this windless afternooon. the second blast shook my chair and i felt that i was swaying away from the window...it was like earthquake man...i was just wondering if this happened at night while i was sleeping, i would most likeky be rolled off my bed.

typing my essay on violence now...so apt with my experience with the blast.

oh man...i wish that i am feeling loved and blissful and happy now. went to dreamy land on my birthday week and before the week ends, i have to pull myself back to reality. i feel damn inadequate. i am not accomplishing anything...i sux at studies, sux at everything....and i don even want to go on listing my inadequacies anymore.

frusrtated...and can it stop raining?

i feel tired now, but it's not the sian kind of feeling i usually get. maybe it's because i am happy. happy coz there are so many pple who care. my jars cares...my hall plus cs friends care...my dg cares...my 403 classmates cares...my 3l classmates care...latheya cares...
haha...drowning in bliss? i don know...i think i feel blissful quite easily.

i feel so loved now..'ve been feeling loved the entire day. i usu. go home on thursday, but this week i went back on sat morning. so i think my parents missed me alot. my father called me this morning and asked me when i coming back, then he said that he will come back early to celebrate for me...wa...he din even do that for my brother....so staying in hall is good. absence makes heart grow fonder..

then my mum called, and asked me the same question. apparently, they din coordinate...so they both missed me alot!

so tonight, my dad really came back extra early. then we celebrated just now. haha. haven gotten a prezzie from them yet, coz i get to choose it myself! wahaha...

feels happy and loved, drowning in family bliss.

bah bah black sheep....

when you get back at hall on thursday night, without msn, without work to do (because of an irritating reason), you end up blogging. and u will end up rambling on and on, maybe non-stop just to pass the time away...

by the way, xy and yx( so cool, their initials can be read both way rounds) recommended durian flavour at scoopz at jp..so try k?

and i am losing my memorry big time. sometimes i wonder if i am like the girl in the korean movie, she started losing her memory when she is still very young. so today, i went to the toilet in the morning and realised that my clothes are in the toilet, forgot to take them to my room after i changed yesterday. then for this morning, i was roaming in can A with my food coz i really forgot where my seat was. it felt quite scary. i keep walking on the top level when i was sitting at the bottom level. then it so happened that i walked near the staircase that i recognised the couple sitting beside us...

i think today is a happy day. i am starting to enjoy the last days of teens. hahaha. went to eat ice cream at scoopz. ( i almost forgot the name, actually i forgot the name). ate 5 flavours in total! had my fav rum and raisin, also ordered peach, mango, strawberry and cookies and cream. i esp liked the peach too. haha. ice cream makes me happy. i aspire to be like a kid for this week, if not no chance liao.

anyway, i ( i actually forgot what i wanted to write, went msning, come back and i forgot....)

well...good night and sweet dreams..

freaking pissed off now. don know why i am so hot tempered today, but really, i feel like yelling. and let's say you don want to do sth, just say so, don just ignore the whole convo, it's terribly rude. and it just frustrates me even more.

kk, i am just going to do my yelling here, after which i will cool down and do my assignment. whoever reading this, you can just go on to the next blog.

this afternoon, i was at benches studying with chin chin, then went off to acrc for research after finishing my jap hw. less than 5 min later, chin chin came looking for me panting, saying that there is a birthday celebration at our bench. IT WAS SUNSHINE'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION. abandoned my research and went back to my bench. everyone else there knew me except him...but I was a bloody coward, and ran away with my bag. it's siao la. I GOT CHASED OUT OF MY OWN BENCH.
after exiting the scene, i know what i should have done. i should have pretended that i don know whose birthday it was and asked ard, then went up to the person and wished them happy brithday. (there were 2 birthday boys)...

in the end i did wad i imagined...and wished the other one happy brithday...but it wasnt sunshine....

i still want to do it.

been burnt
still scarred.
boiling broil,
hurts hand.
craving was clumsily satisfied.
she still loves nuggets,
but hates cooking now.

been burnt
still scarred.
boiling broil,
hurts hand.
craving was clumsily satisfied.
she still loves nuggets,
but hates cooking now.

wahaha, i am suddenly very inspired to study very hard tmr since i am free the whole day. (hopefully). i am going to study 9 hours tmr, excluding meals, and i am going to complete 3 most impt things, lit review, 6 readings, 1 assignment. haha, was talking to shujing just now, i am going to treat studying as the love of my life tmr...just try it for one day first, then see how....who wants to join me? i studying at amk lib. sighz, too late to ask ard now...think i will ask ard tmr. hee hee

inspired.

I'm sorry....

i am going to die of terrible headache. sunshine, seriously i don know who you are...

anyway, how did u know about solar system? i thot only yixin and rebec knows. or you happened to know my codes? gosh...i really don know who you are man...why don you sms me and tell me who you are..i can let the contest go on on my tagboard. kk?

ok, i am really tired today...unconscious since 9, went to eeat abit at 11...damn tired...

haha, sianz now...was supposed to have tuition at 330, but kid cancelled it again when i was at city hall...so i took the train back to boon lay again...

sleep throughout my 2 hour journey and i slept somemore when i started reading my research materials...just woke up man...and i am still sleepy...anyone knows where i can dl videos on violence in news?

haha, i came over to cati lab to do my 104 research plus doing the write up. but guess what, sunshine is here too...and i cannot concentrate. keep looking back to see wad's happening behind me.

alright he just left. sianz...

so i wasted one hour in the cati lab, pretending to print notes that i don need...so i get the excuse to stand up and look at him. oh ya, i overheard talking on the phone also. he is in charge of some graphic design event coming end march. i want to join leh. i heard there is a workshop....time to learn more about digital designing? hahahah...

sighz...he has left and i still cannot concentrate on my work leh...how?

bad day for my legs...

first i fell down ungraciously in amk central on my way to work. man. it was embarassing and it hurts. and it still hurts. and i stood for 6 hours(including lunch) in my heels, and have to smile as if standing on heels with the wound on my knee doesnt hurt. but pro sia? i don think anyone could tell. hahaha.

i realised sth today. rgs pple are really agressive, maybe not aggressive but challenging since they are so smart..got stunned by this rgs girl asking abt loan. anyway, she asked until i had to refer her to kelvin.

how come the wound gets more painful as the day passes by? any medical explanation?

let me tell you again how my country wants us to collect passports.

they tell you go there at 230. but if you really go there at 230, you are wrong. you should go there way before 230. because, if you reach at 230, you are the number 122nd and you have to wait for another hour to collect your passport.

and you know what? you wait for an hour, just to sign on the passport in front of them and you can leave.

and i have spent 200 bucks(taxi fare plus cost of passport) just to make and collect a passport...process repeats every 5 years

i am tired...but i feel like blogging, and i'll just let my inspiration carries me...and mk said that i should not think that i am light enough for inspiration to carry me...hmm...lame sia? anyway, the above 2 lame jokes are from him too...if you feel like hantaming someone, yes, find him.

anyway, went for tuition just now. my kid is so funny can...haha, i was teaching her "burn midnight oil", then she told me " i found another similar phrase for that---drive the midnight car"...for once i wanted to praise her for being able to "ju yi fan san", but i realise that drive the midnight car is the direct translation from chinese. wanted to die from laughing. then she told me her other stories of direct translation. fire chicken and water dragon head. siao liao...couldnt control myself...but she really din meant it coz she was from tw and her english is really weak( explains my existence)

my inspiration has ended....i am now falling....falling into deep sleep...nights....

hee, thanks for the reminder..but i don feel like using all the jokes at one go mah..so here goes the second one.

what do you call a blind deer that is not moving.

still no idea?