Sorry to all who are reading this, coz this is another of my kao bei session. feel free to read it to find out what pisses me off, or maybe you are the one who pissed me off.

Reason number one why I did not tell YOU right in YOUR face that is because YOU are too ego to get anything into that small pea brain of YOURS. I witness YOU smiling when i said that YOU resembled someone i din used to like. I see YOU blaming everyone else, especially me, for everything that went wrong. Are YOU so oblivious to YOUR own faults? Are YOU aware that the crack lies in YOUR character? YOUR ego is so disastrous, that at this day and time, I want to conlude this to be an unresolved puzzle, and will never be resolved.

So that justifies my need to publish YOUR infamous deeds on the world wide web. this channel of expression is essential to my survival.

First, YOU tell lies. Not one lie, but TWO lies, and there were probably many more that i did not have the time to uncover.

Secondly, YOU tell more lies to cover up YOUR previous lies. I did not expect YOU to treat me like a 3 year-old, i can verify facts independently, I know your friends and i know what really happened. I think YOU are disrespecting my dignity and humiliating me as well. I hated stupid phonecalls of YOU wanting sympathy over events that never happened.

Thirdly, YOU run away like a coward just when YOUR lies are about to be exposed. some guilty conscience that is acting up, uh? I would appreciate it if YOU tell me directly that YOU told a lie. All the promises that YOU made were probably just there to boost your ego. and i feel terribly sorry for myself to have been made a puppet. i am very insulted by YOUR actions.

ps: i know that YOU have been kaobeiing me behind my back, and i also hate the way YOU use others to check me out.

i am all ready for christmas! i have received my first christmas gift, from my roomie. =) damn touched. she gave me in advance coz she is going back to malaysia...damn touched, damn touched...she actually prepared it way in advance. =D

so there comes more christmas preparations. i got myself a pair of christmas tree earrings(not the cheesy kind, it's quite classy actually)...got it when shopping with minglei. oh ya, yesterday was happy day. went to celebrate christelle's birthday. so happy to see her after eons! sighz..have to wait till her exams are over. after which, i went to watch harry potter with minglei. wa...good film, nice company but cold cinema..,

then there was more christmas shopping today with yixin. wahahaha. went mad inside the shop that had "size: 40%". and i like my new nail polish...too bad they din have green ones, otherrwise i would have bought it for christmas. hehe...

now i think i better stop buying things for myself and start shopping for other people....

now's the time to give a little summary of this semester. sth which i had thot about for quite some time during the exams period...

i don know if i had been happy this semester. there were times which i did, i think the project i enjoyed most was 108, (http://www.ntu.edu.sg/home2005/siew0014), the project that i am most proud of was 111, finishing the exams was another happy thing, and i am really glad that i got alot out of this course. it changed the way i looked at things, how i read newspaper, how i think about the arrangment of articles, to be more skeptical about everything i see in the media. even when i watched movies, i know noticed the angle and the lightings of the scenes, how it portrays the story and if there needs any improvements. i watched emily rose last night and it scared the hell out of me, but the funny thing i had thought about the film from the editor's point of view, and i swear i will never film nor edit any horror movie. haha, funny right? i think i would have sweared not to watch horror movie again if i din take this course.

but then again, there were times i wished i was somewhere else, like being in nus where everyone else is, wished that i had taken up the scholarship, wished i don have to go through this kind of education system, esp when i hated essays, missed solving maths sums, learning science theories...so i don say stupid things like plastic is recyclable. actually i really thot it would be true someday, when some microorganims is genetically modified and trained to breakdown the chains.

i think one is supposed to grow up as the age increases, but apparently i do not. i became more timid as i grew older. never used to be scared of horror movies, and one emily rose scared the hell out of me. ask my roomie, she had never seen anyone so extreme before. basically, wad i did was to leave the lights on the whole night, chose to occupy myself with textbooks and din dare to fall asleep....quite funny siah, reading my textbooks after the exams, just because i am too scared to sleep. sighz...then i felt bad, coz she din sleep well(the lights were on the entire night), only dared to sleep after day breaks...sigh...i am just lousy....