i've just gotten another bad news. another project! this is not going to drive me crazy yet, i still preserved some sanity and i hope it last till the end of the semester before i replenish it with umlimited kbox, movies and trips. i intend to really go somewhere during break, anyone got an idea? i have limited budget though...=(

the project i am embarking on will be about blogging, which made me reflect upon myself. the conclusion is i, myself is an extremely unsuccessful blogger. unlike those who have agendas be it critisms on public issues or sophisticated insights on philosophy of life, my blog is just on my typical stressful life, basic emotions and thoughts that everyone shares. And that makes me a real retard of following the crowd in fighting for freedom of speech or trying to deviate from the mainstream media since my blog is nowhere near novelty nor innovation.

thus, i have decided to stop blogging altogether but the archives will still remain until i have a project on "the deteriemnts of leaving your trace behind."

the holidays are long over...how great.. life is much better now. feeling more free except for needing to do stuff for the coms and sub coms. still feel like joining the school's foc...but wondering how much workload would there be....will think harder about it.
happy mid autumn festival everyone. stupid me actually forgot about it and went straight to hall after church. spent the zhong qiu jie doing the term paper. quite sad, first time spending my zhong qiu jie without my family. i thought the worst one was in p6 when psle crashed with zhong qiu jie. well, i did learn sth on that day, about ipod. i will give my full respect to apple now. they are not selling products, they are selling passion, enthusiasium, idea. owners of apple products are proud of them. look at the fervent when people say, " i love my ibook/powerbook.", i think they are totally in love with it, at least for me...and i find myself becoming a betrayer of creative. i look at my zen and wished that i have a nano now. well, after all my research, creative is still the mp3 i would recommend, for it's practicality and functions. and yes, this is what other companies are selling, functions and practicality. i think ideas appeal more to people and that's why ipod is selling so well.

how did i get there. haha...anyway, i went home yesterday to make up for the zhong qiu jie reunion and my dad was really funny. my mum bought a dvd player that was faulty, so she went to change for a new one, but the manager was giving her a a hard time. my mum was so pissed off that she called my dad to complain and guess what my dad said? ---next time don't buy from them lor.
gosh.

HI WORLD! i am having a holiday now. like, finally....there are so many things i want to do but yet i have so many things i need to do.

i feel inadequate in uni life. i cant stand lousy results, no that i have been faring well in my jc, but it's the fact that i am doing sth that i really love but i don understand why i still cant do well in them. this is kinda shit. i checked my score for the last quiz that i had. got 94.5% which is really good, but i still feel bad over that 1%. i don't understand why i am becoming such a perfectionist. but i really spent alot of time studying for that. can u imagine studying 2 weeks for a test which i completed in 20 min? i think it's ridiculous. i'm not putting my time into good use and i am stressing myself all the time. pple always ask me why am i so kan cheong, ask me to relax. i dont even know that i am all stessed up until pple tell me so.

and that is why i need this break. and guess wad? i have 2 term papers to do. out of which, i dont even know the topic for the technological one. can someone give me an issue to talk about for technology?

and next, making friends is still very hard. i know that they are all nice people, i take care of them and they take care of me, but it's really hard to feel the same kind of bonds as i had in sec school and jc. sometimes, i really wonder if it's because of the rafflesian culture that no one else shared. yesterday, i played contract bridge for my block and my partner din even know floating bridge, i was so shocked that i almost fainted. tell me which one of my friends from sec school and jc din know bridge? i even knew the bridge club chair and almost the entire gang was in bridge club. friends, i am so proud of you.

then yesterday i went to crash yan xuan's room, and we talked like so much, and then yixin came to crash a few days before, and we talked even more. haven talked so much for a long time. can u imagine a shuwan that talks unless neccessary and walk off alone after class? i cant believe this either.