Monday, June 27, 2005

Protector

You are a
protector.

Yes, you don't like to kill people. That goes
against everything you belive in. It's not that
you are a coward, but your ideals and morals
wouldn't allow it. You are the typical hero, do
the righteous things, get the bad guys and do
it all legally. But just because you don't kill
doesn't mean you can't kick ass. And that is
what you do. You use your brain and your
strenght to do honourable deeds and protect
people you know and love. If an evil guy is
going to take over the world soon, it's you who
will get involved. You hate watching innocents
suffer, and love seeing bad people getting what
they deserve. You are probably also happy and
optimistic and work pretty good in groups. And
the friends you usually make are true ones.

Main weapon: Anything at all
Quote: "You only live once, but if
you do it right, once is enough" -Joe
Lewis
Facial expression: Smile



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Sunday, June 26, 2005

the really tired girl is blogging now..did alot of fun stuff for the past week. i maintained that working in ida is great...=)

monday--went for medical checkup. the x ray machine actually spoilt. luckily they have another branch in orchard. imagine boon lay...it's also the day when i did the craziest and unsuccessful thing on earth.

tuesday--i remembered that lunch with colleague was great. amazed at appetite. Ah, an alliteration. another! alright, lame...

wednesday--went to take x ray. plus girls night out at eski bar. you have to really try their specialties, sleeping polar bear and eski blue. i personally prefer the former one, it has milk and pineapple. eski blue was others' favorite, it is slightly minty with lychee taste. i'm starting to drool again.

thursday--tuition

friday--chinese class outing. good food. nice people.

saturday---girls' day out again!!! mahjong, movie, meal by me! ( alliteration!!!) i cooked fried rice. no, i think heated is more precise than cooked, coz the carrot was still crunchy. by the way, i cut the carrot using breadknife and pam used that to cut luncheon meat. i thot it was quite pathetic. hahaha...i hoped they enjoyed the main course...but whatever the case is, i definitely enjoyed the dessert. hey guys reading my blog, you all should marry adrienne!!! she knows how to cook chicken rice, hokkien mee, bo bo cha cha and more....

sunday--great day. found 3 updates. wow. good day at 2 libraries. marine parade and seng kang. but i only borrowed 2 books. i cant read that fast anyway, and i've made it a point to visit the library every week.

haha, i cant wait for work tmr.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

hihi...lazy girl is reporting late for blogging online today..i have lotsa stuff to do man! busy girl and not lazy girl now...bye for now..maybe i'll come back later..

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

no doubt...lazy girl is here again...blogging with a smile here, coz she is really satisfied with the internet access here....=) for those who even sees me on web messenger will know how happy i am here.

so ya, i went for medical check up yesterday. and it's such a hassle coz we haf to go back to jurong point to take our x ray there. and by the time me and yan xuan got to jurong point, we were so engrossed in shopping until we forgot about the x ray. luckily, i was messenging kh about the medical check-up, if not i would haf cleaned forgotten it until i reached home.

anyway, it would not have made a difference if i had forgotten about the x ray since the machine was spoilt....overloaded, must be....

so that means, i haf to go down again!!!! damnit...it's so irritating man...

i would have to go down to orchard for x ray tmr...which means i have to skip lunch with jane tmr...haha, it seems like everyone here is waiting for her to come back..i'm waiting too....

Monday, June 20, 2005

hey! here comes the lazy girl again, blogging during office hours. i deserved to be spanked....hahaha. which kinda reminds me of the chair in ts 16 that says "spank me" haha, the good old times...

by the way, i need a roommate urgently...please call me or tag if u can stand staying with me. ya, i'm talking about ntu hostel...please please..i need a roommate...

time to knock off...took half day off for medical check up at ntu...i'm not excited at all...damit...sianz

Saturday, June 18, 2005

oooh hoo...nice fun day under the sun! had an og outing at sentosa just now....i think the best way to summarise it is to read br's blog when she posts the photos up. lol! i haven laughed so hard for a long time..

i think i better learn how to swim, nearly drowned in the sea today while playing frisbee...scary xia. but luckily, qt was near enough to save me and bring me closer to shore. wished that i was taller too...julie was at the deeper end too but yet, she was standing and i was drowning..haha...

another highlight of the day was seeing a certain someone twice at taka. TWICE!!!!! lost control completely, that was so embarrassing....

ok, i'm completely knocked out now, really tired. heard the question, " shuwan, you look forlorn" 2514533141251725456 times at dinner today....so bye for now, and i'll blog more about today at some other time.

Friday, June 17, 2005

blogging for the 3rd time today. hee...quite a lot of stuff happened.

i was walking in amk central when i saw a cute guy and started staring at him. guess wad? he waved and said hi. you must be thinking " wow, wad a rendevous encounter!" but no, the moment he said hi, i realised that he was my primary school classmate. lol...oh man, he is cute...but sad to say, he is still as gay as ever...recognised him by the broken-wristed-hi....haha...

still in a state of shock...

by the way, i hate people who lie to me. and worst still, follow up with the lie.

habis.

TAKING BACK THE PREVIOUS POST...WAS SCOLDED BY SOMEONE JUST NOW AND WAS ALMOST DROVE TO TEARS...BUT I THINK MY SUPERVISOR WAS VERY NICE...SHE JUST ASKED" WAS HE VERY FIERCE?" IN A VERY GENTLE TONE, SO I WAS SOOTHED...=)

STILL ENJOYING THE JOB DESPITE THAT INFURIATING INCIDENT...I HAVE REALLY NICE COLLEAGUES OVER HERE..=)

fifth day at work and it's still very exciting. i guess it's because i have internet access over here. hey, look! i blogged at 9.30 am in the morning....haha....i'm really satisfied with e working envronment here....just waiting for jane to come back to make this perfect. =)

wad is my job scope like...hmmm.... i call people up to chase them for surveys. really enjoy this for(for the moment) coz i get to talk non-stop. another satisfaction comes from the fact that people cower when they hear that i am calling from ida....haha...little do they know that i'm just a small temp staff earning onli 6 bucks per hour....haha...some sense of authority over there...

better stop blogging...i think my supervisor caught me using internet sms.=p

Thursday, June 16, 2005

the wound is still bleeding,
never realised how much it still hurts
until i was reminded of it.
aghhzzz..

i cant find the peace i sought,
i cant live with the disappointing glares
buried under the smiles,
in silence...

wad is wrong with me?
why do i still think about it?
how can i get out of this?
question marks....

i admired the courage pple had,
i wished i had the passion,
i want to learn to let go,
let's just be weird...

Sunday, June 12, 2005

never do this one thing in your life--shop with your mum.

rushed down after lunch and realised that she's late. gosh, toured raffles city twice. TWICE. while waiting for her. so, just when i wanted to sit down at starbucks to rest, she called. yeah, spoiled my resting plan...

liked quite a few stuff i saw, but i was forbidden to even try them. "DON buy t-shirts"....but hello, i'm gonna stay in hostel, t-shirts are a neccessity. that's not going to stop me, still gonna buy them when i after work at suntec everyday. =) *evil grin.

and i was forced to buy a pair of running shoes. din exactly liked all those that i saw. got quite stressed up that i had to buy one...ok la, i'm learning to like it now...feels quite comfy actually...

hmm...i think my mum is not the one that pissed me off...it's myself...

Saturday, June 11, 2005

oohh...major accomplishment...just finished stairway to heaven...(hehe, can lend minglei already...)feeling a little more sadder than usual...and hungry too...forgo all my meals just to watch this...

a minor serial review for now. really really captivating show, has a complicated storyline (like all-popular bo li xie). loved the first few episodes, it captured the innocent puppy love( like qiu tian de tong hua)...haha, seems like korean shows all follow the same style. but this director is really good, managed to sway my moods throughout the 20 episodes. i feel pissed off most of the time, how can they suffer so much injustice! well, of sourse this is only a show, there's no need to be so affected by it.

but casting was quite badly done, except for the male lead*grinz. the second male lead is too ugly for his own good. he died in the end, and i don think it's a very sad scene. and i think it's really because he is not handsome. and next, the second female lead is so much more prettier than the first female lead. too pretty for her own good too, she gives people the feeling that she is innocent and sincere. maybeher acting skills are not there yet, but it's rather unconvincing that she is evil...and it's rather sad that audience(me only), looks out for her instead of the female lead.

a very touching show with very good message. even though, you may cry till your tears flood the house, you can still remain optimistic. coz they will still meet again, in heaven of course. and that is where their love will begin(quoted from the show)

a nice ending too, not too abrupt. showed exactly wad happened to each character, i'm quite pleased about that. it ended off nicely with the guy playing the piano by the seaside, exactly the same way as they started the show with. and that scene is really beautiful. a handsome guy playing the ivory white grand piano by the vast sea. gosh...that's really charming.

Friday, June 10, 2005

i'm going to break down. in fact, i'm already broken down.

i just keeps torturing myself with those thoughts. it's getting worse.

i wish i can talk to somebody. SOMEBODY HELP ME.

i really wished i sought help this afternoon. but i din...i need to know how to control my feelings. worst still, i appear to be alright, but my heart is aching. AND THEREFORE, nobody listens to me.

damit.

Thursday, June 09, 2005

let today be a great day. today is zai zai's birthday!!!!! YOZ! =)

hahahaha...

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

there are too many idiots out there. keep on praying that you are not one of them.

Friday, June 03, 2005

i want to thank all the darlings out there who had helped me a great deal. still in a state of confusion, but at least there is tranquility in me.

first, it's darling yang han who stayed up with me till 2am this morning...your presence made me felt that i wasnt alone. it was indeed comforting.

then it's darling my jars. darling janejane's words still rings in my head. and i agree with her, why not do things the other way round? i realised that i have a framed-up mindset afterall. and why am i waivering, what is hindering me...got to give serious thought about that too...

darling yixin's words about wad kind of life do i want to lead for the next few years is important too...do i want to slog or relax?having a real life experience for reference is just so important to me...

and darling mel who reminds me of where i can get help from...and even helped me asked about my stuff even though it was her turn to talk to darling laoshi...

darling rebec din offer alot of opinions...but each time she says sth, it's because you know me too well...and i'm remember who i really am again...

darling mandie...i can onli remember teasing you about mango and your search for a bag...hahaha...but still, i wanna thank you for the card... i know it was made ontime, thanks.

yes...to all my darlings...thanks for being there...it's great to have you guys knowing me so well

got to think about real stuff

i bet i screamed a million damits.

everything that had just happened was like a blast. sth i was totally unprepared for. they must be out of their minds to want someone who screwed up her interview and her life.

am i still going to screw things up?

i don know. i seriously need help now....

but i think it's the first time i really felt god's love for me. i haven been doing my quiet time and comtemplated skipping church and its activites. and he still loves me, gives me everything i asked for. i know it's a challenge for me now...to be deciding between so many things, first they were 3 jobs staring at me. and now i have 2 lifelong options i can choose from. now i need directions. thank you lord.

i was onli left with 10.5 hours with you when i know we will part forever. aghhh...damit. i really wished i had to guts to carry out those ridiculous ideas of pouring coffee/hot water over your shirt....why must you go for reservice during my last week? the last week when i'll bake cookies for everyone, the week when i'll date everyone else for lunch, the week that i'll bring a camera and take pictures....with you...

i wanna thank you for being such a eye candy, makes my terrible working condition a more condusive one each time i sit up to peek at you over the partiton...damit, this sounds desperate...but i really only have 8.5 hours left officially...

i need to think of sth...