cool fact of the week--me and my colleague have known for 3 generations...

it's really cool right? and our fathers are really good friends. and because of that, we have become really good friends too...haha..well, the funny thing is we are both very excited about it, yet our fathers are so nonchalant...so basically, i cant share this joy with my dad...maybe that's why i'm expressing on the blog...

i received a kind donation from a friend and carefully reserved that packet of cinnamon coffee for a sleepy afternoon when i have tons of work to do. it is placed out of my reach, i make it a point that i'll only drink it unless neccessary.

today, i dozed off a couple of times in front of the keyboard, with the middle finger still resting on the key [0]. i wasnt surprised to see zeros all over my screen after i woke up, but i knew it's time to brew the coffee to perk me up. yet, looking at the stacks of papers piled up on my table, i should at least finsh off those at hand, just to ease my mind.

to cut the short story shorter, by the time i eased my mind, it was already half an hour before i can officially knock off.

i do open myself to ridicule, don't i?

to hell with the past 5 days. finally there is a day with nothing bad except a little horror. had quite a bit of fun with my tutee and i enjoyed looking at the twin girls in her house....so cool, everything in her house are in pairs. 2 sarongs, 2 prams, 2 milk bottles, 2 gloves...
then i went for the scare of my life. screamed till my throat is more hoarsed(i already sound like a man)...yes, go watch amittyville horror. i give it 4 stars.

then i shopped the hell out of me. that's the kind of bad news i like.

i'm damn bloody pissed off...i wish i can swear and kick all those asses out of this world.

and i'm constantly reminded of the fact that this is a blog. i cant write anything here...but then again, i don wish to trace back all the trauma this week...let's just forget the whole thing. BUT, easier said than done. so many buts in my paragraph...life is full of contradictions. i hate the word contradiction. i think i'm constantly tormenting myself. i need to do sth to preoccupy my mind. better still, i need a shrink.

this is a horrible week.

there is not a single day this week when i can be entirely happy...wednesday sucked big time, i screwed up my own thursday, and when i thot friday could be a better day, i was displaced by some newcomer whom i'm tempted to call idiot. but shall give her some respect since she is doing chem engineering, a prestigious course..but it's also because she is a very nice person, just a little too smug. STILL, i feel that things are so unfair...and now, please come to raffles place and have lunch with me....PLEASE!!! i'm looking for 3 more lunch kakis for next week...call me!

oh yes, i have an urgent appeal too...who's gonna live in hostel in ntu? and wanna live with me...sign up at my tagboard or call me up!

it's been ages since i last blogged.

the last post was a happy one.

but right now, life sux.

2 things you have to do at least once in your lifetime.

1. eat the banana crumble from swensons.
2. watch the singapore youngest busker play percussion.

i think anthony federov looks like harry potter when he was young.

What If.....

the more i listen to "wouldnt it be nice", the more i think that it's a sad song.

it's sad because it's too innocent and idealistic.

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

it's definitely not nice to be old. it's not nice to start shouldering responsibilities. it's not nice to do things considering the consequences. and when u grow older, u need to learn these 2 basic facts. firstly, the only constant is change. therefore u cant live together forever. secondly, this world is an integrated one, full of intersections and overlaps. there is no such things as "a world where we belong". there are always compromises to be made.

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy

u know something, even when u grow up, even when you possess all the knowledge and power of the world, there is still a million things that you cant do as you wish. the innocent prayer of " please make my wish come true", no longer works. you are not going to ask for a toy car or a barbie doll when u blow the candles on your 7th birthday. you are going to ask for things like health on your 70th birthday, which may not be granted.

then, from all movies and real life examples, we know that "we could be married and then we'd be happy" is not true. no need for elaboration.

it's time to blog again.

i realised that i've been talking rubbish on my blog...i think i sounded too desperate...got this idea from someone's blog..

anyway, so wad've i been doing recently? can anyone who read this blog, have some pity on me, come to raffles place and have lunch with me? i havent had a great lunch for 2 weeks...until today...had lunch with yang han today...found myself talking again....i had been quiet and reserved during lunch for the past 2 weeks. in fact, it's not only during lunch, it's throughout the day when i sit in front of the computer. i sulk a lot and i think no one dares to talk to me. *cry* i want pple to talk to me...

so look me up for lunch...i don think i can mix with them...it's gonna stay this way until june 10.

oh ya..had og outing on monday...another wonderful day to celebrate dan's and cheryl's birthday...shall not ramble on the minor details of the outing..it's all on baorong's blog anyway...but i really had fun. cheers to latheya.

just came back from malaysia...feels a little rushed...rushed in this morning coz i had tuition till 9 last night, and had to rush out coz i had tuition tmr morning, but that was just an excuse, og outing is the reason....hahaha...

so i went for my cousin's wedding today..so inspired to get married, coz they looked so blissful, never seen my cousin so tame before...hahaha...then i also saw a few of my cousins bringing their gf and bf...guess i should be having at least 2 wedding dinners in 3 years time...i think i should hurry up man...this sounds desperate...ok, i'm gonna let things take it's course...

as i was writing that i was thinking where i could target....sadly, none of my tuition kids are guys and neither do they have good looking brothers..which reminds me of my office...the guy sitting beside me is super sweet to his girlfriend. i once asked him if he was sad that his gf is asked to work downstairs. his reply was" no la, it's not like we are separated forever"...he had such strong faith in his relationship...